Today was my last first day of high school, and I'm still unsure of whether I should jump and cheer, or cry. Maybe both simultaneously? Today was definitely filled with a mixture of emotions that even an afternoon Chipotle couldn't cure. Junior year is most definitely a stressful year, I have a feeling the first semester of senior year won't be a walk in the park either. I can do it-- at least that is what I have been telling myself.
My everlasting nickname, Awkward Alyssa, may vanish this year. As I walked through the main corridor in my school I didn't feel weirded out by absence of last year's seniors, and I didn't feel awkward being the oldest in the school. No. Rather than feeling awkward, I felt a sense of confidence I hadn't had prior to that. Has being a senior gone to my ego? Possibly, but in a good way. In light of the newfound confidence in myself, I have made multiple decisions that I feel will benefit me, make me an all around better person, and make me feel genuinely happy.
- I will not let others opinions of me tear me down and affect me.
- I will make the decisions that I want to make, not the decisions that others want me to make. (Unless of course my decisions will negatively affect others. That is a different story.)
My last decision is fashion related, and it is something I have failed to do in the past. I will no longer "dress to impress" others. Rather, I will dress up and wear what I want because it makes me feel comfortable and happy. I used to wear what I thought other people would like. This year that will change. I will dress for no one but myself.
As you can see, I did some mild back-to-school shopping. My new black polka dot Herschel Supply Co. backpack is definitely one of my favorite backpacks of all time. Between my heavy AP books, binders, and my lunch, the backpack was able to hold everything. All the other items are self-explanatory, however I would like to mention something about the new heels I purchased: they will not be used for school. They were on sale $10 dollars and I couldn't resist.
ONE LAST NOTE: It is my senior year, and I am going to make it count!!
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